we suck

I am so afraid, all of the time. I have three kids and I don’t think they’re going to get to have anything resembling the life I have. Definitely not a life like my parents’. We are all fucked.

I have this little fantasy of my old age that I can’t bring myself to write down because it is never going to happen. I don’t have any right to that future, because if I get to have it, it will be because we did not do the things we need to do to save our life on earth.

It’s not a matter of becoming vegetarian or composting or not driving or whatever. I don’t know how I can influence the people at the top of the ladder to give a fuck about the people who are already dying. I don’t know how to get people to understand that this is the natural progression of white supremacy and the patriarchy. They’re all linked to each other – if white people are better than everyone else, and if men are the God-created leaders, then white men don’t have to listen to anyone else while they amass as much wealth as they possibly can. But wealth is a construct, built by white men, to prop up their position of power over everyone else, including the earth.

The earth is ultimately in charge here – we have set systems in motion that will destroy life until we’re all gone and the earth can reset. Possibly, in a few millenia, there will be new intelligent life, or some strange evolution of humanity that will keep going. But seven billion human beings is too many when the people who believe in the mythology of wealth are running the show and letting people die.

I don’t know what to do. I can’t do anything by myself that will make any sort of difference. I don’t know how you make people care. When the myth of wealth has been propped up for so long, and the people who win at it don’t see or care about the people they’re killing, I don’t know how you fix that. I think they ought to be tried for murder, but given that the judiciary system is part of the myth, that isn’t going to work.

On a planetary scale, I think we’re all on trial for murder of the environment. And I think we’re sentenced to death.